Mothers and Distraction

There’s 19 days to go before Rich gets home, and I have to say that I’m feeling a lot better now that I’m off the pill.  Sure I have my period again and the cramps are worse than they’ve ever been, but at least I’m not getting the really bad lows that I was getting at night before.  I guess it’s possible that a pill can make you feel bipolar.

Both Rich and I have been distracted beyond belief when it comes to horniness, and we don’t know why.  Well, for me it’s been the constant wearing of a pad for the last two weeks, and for him I’m not too sure.  I was surprised that he wasn’t as crazy horny as normal on the break, but I think we both lost our libidos after the spectacle of mom coming down.  I really hope we go back to normal though; back to when we’d stay in all day and just fuck.  I really miss those weekends, just because there was no stress.  The easter break felt like those weekends until of course the stress came to me, but I have no doubt that we’ll get a few days in like those times again somewhere.

I have to say that even cute chicks really aren’t getting to me lately.  I attempted watching porn a few days ago, and found that I was mostly bored, and started trying to see a chick’s boob job scars; le sigh.  I still haven’t made up my mind about those yet.  I would really like a bigger chest, but would I really get myself cut open and stuffed with silicon or saline to do it? I can’t picture it, but I do find that I like the look of them.  Bigger sigh.  I think if I ever do, I’ll wait until after I’ve had kids and see if they sag or not.  If they do, I’ll go for the boob job/lift thing….can you blame me for wanting to be a hot 40 year old? Everyone’s hot in their teens (you know what I mean) but once we start pushing into the 30′s and 40′s bone structure determines who looks good and who doesn’t.  My bone structure says that I’ll have a nice face (thank god….I”m scared of butterface syndrome) but the same bones say I could end up with a very large rear end….Sigh.  We’ll see how well I can fight it with the gym and good diet.  Now I just have to hope wrinkles don’t get me.